My heart is breaking
Inside this withered shell
My soul is shriveling
In this place that seems like hell

Thoughts race through
This mind that is suffocating
As I realize I am trapped
Though there is so much for the taking

My eyes have seen
And now my heart weeps
There is so much more
Than this life I have to keep

Two parts to my sorrow
Away from love, and in a cage
It is him that I long for, and the lands that he is in
My emotions are both deep sadness and rage

He is my heart
And those lands my soul
So much I need both
I am drowning in this hole.

The yearning will never cease
Demanding satisfaction
Such a fool to think
I could plan and take action

Now that I have seen
I hunger more and more
For adventure and discovery
And for the man that I adore

Those lands have me now
Full of beauty and history
Such a sense of belonging
Wrapping my soul in their mystery

But fate has its claws in me
Binding me in this place
Without the means and the freedom
Hope fades leaving no trace

I don’t belong here
My heart fiercely screams
There is more for me than this
But all I have now are dreams

Dreams of his smile
His love and his touch
Dreams of those places
That I long for so much.

~ Bek, September 2003